We're having a......(gender reveal)!

 
Gender reveal
 

Hello everyone!! How are you? I feel like it's been forever since I've been on here. Pregnancy has made me quite a bit less motivated to do everyday life things, and I'm having to accept that it's okay not to do everything if I don't have to. I used to be someone that put so much of my worth and effort into what I accomplished...I'm grateful to have grown over the past few years--it was always so anxiety provoking and shame producing...

Anyways, I have officially made it to 20 weeks and a few days (when you were a kid, did you tell people you were "7 and three-quarters"?? I feel like pregnancy is like that for me)!! This past Friday we had our 20 week scan and found out the gender. Ya'll I was so freaking anxious and nervous on the ride there. I thought I just might get sick or wet my pants πŸ˜‚. I've found the overall OB experience to be very rushed. My appointments are only about 5 minutes long. So getting to see the baby for like 20 minutes was such a fun experience for me. Not to mention getting to see the baby in detail--we got to see the profile, the heart, the brain, baby's arms and legs, etc. It was such a great experience...

 
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Which leads me to the gender. We had contemplated not finding out during the ultrasound, but wanted to be 100% present without being afraid of seeing something that would give us a clue. Finding out the gender helps us to better connect because we no longer have to call Baby "baby" or "it", and we get to make dreams about Baby's life, and plan the nursery...and buy clothes πŸ˜‰. 

We're having......

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A BOY!!!

Friday night we had our parents over for dinner and the reveal. We bought blue poppers and wrapped them in brown paper with "Boy or Girl?" written on them. We had them vote what gender they thought we were having--2 and 2. Here's the video of them finding out (my mom is the precious one who hugged my mother in law. πŸ˜‚

 
 Is this outfit not the cutest?!?

Is this outfit not the cutest?!?

 

We're so excited about this little boy joining our family and providing so much joy over the years to come. For those of you interested, I figured I would share my pregnancy experience so far.

Food cravings/aversion

Thank GOODNESS my food aversions have gone away! It seems so silly, but not wanting or enjoying some of my favorite foods and experiences was really sad for me. Around week 17 or 18 I started to want coffee and desserts. And I've finally moved away from eating asiago bagels with eggs for breakfast everyday. I haven't had many food cravings, but still want more carb-based meals. I DO put cream cheese on a lot of things, which is new for me, but I'm really enjoying it. I've also craved hot dogs--which is not me. I usually think hot dogs are disgusting. And yet, every time I see one, I want one. Pregnancy is SO WEIRD!!

Body image

Honestly, body image has been pretty rough throughout the pregnancy. I've had so many expectations of what my body would do or what it "should" do, and reality has been very different for me. I assumed I would have this "cute little baby bump", but instead have just gotten wider everywhere. Guys, my love handles are growing like weeds!! πŸ˜‚I've heard there is this belief that women should only gain weight in their belly during pregnancy, and this could not be further from the truth! Sure, that may be some women's experience, but it's not the typical woman's experience. Our bodies need to gain 8-12 pounds of fat simply for reserves for baby during pregnancy and breastfeeding. Apparently this is deposited mainly in the love handles, hips, and thighs as DHA is stored in love handles. DHA=fat for brain development. I'm starting to think our baby boy is going to be very smart with all the DHA I'm apparently storing! πŸ˜‰

I read the "Does the Pregnancy Make Me Look Fat" book, which was helpful for bolstering my confidence in my body and my experience. I've also had to remind myself that everyone's experience is different. And just because so and so hasn't gained weight in her lower half and isn't showing yet, doesn't mean that my body is wrong for gaining weight and showing. We're just different. Different doesn't mean better or worse. I also had a conversation with my OB about not discussing my weight with me. It was good for me to be able to draw those boundaries so that I can protect myself in the future. 

 
 Look at that sweet face profile!! πŸ˜

Look at that sweet face profile!! πŸ˜

 

Other body changes

Thankfully the nausea has gone away for the most part. I'm still dealing with acid reflux on a daily basis (for me it's not burning, but more of a relaxation of the stomach and esophagus, resulting in the feeling that food is coming back up....sorry for the graphic detail😳). And I have to be careful about the foods I eat for my stomach. It's just more finicky and I have to be careful about my choices. I love apples right now, but they kill my stomach, so I have to be choosy about how much and what other foods I eat them with. Other changes include my eyelashes falling out, so that's cool...and I'm now feeling the baby move and kick. It's the GREATEST. I absolutely love feeling him kick because it really connects us. Isaac has even been able to feel him, which was such a neat experience for him. 

Exercise

Continuing to move my body is really important to me. I want to be physically fit and have endurance for the labor, because I know it is going to be strenuous and difficult. I want to be sure that I'm continuing to move my body so that it is more ready for this. However, just because I'm continuing to move my body, doesn't mean it looks the same as it used to. I've scaled it way back. Partially because I don't have the energy to do what I would have in the past, and partially because things just feel weird. Running is a form of movement that is NOT comfortable for me. I don't like the way it feels for Baby to move up and down each time I take a step. So I've been doing a lot of walking and then have done weights on my own or a weight lifting class. But being aware of how my body feels at each time is something I'm really conscientious of. 

I'm sure that as the summer progresses and it continues to get hotter (how is that even possible), I will take advantage of the pool at the Y. I'm thinking floating and swimming will feel great on my body. πŸ™‹

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And that's all for now. Thanks for celebrating with us!! :-D

Quick summer time lunch

Heyyyy guys!! How are things going in your neck of the woods (who says that?)?? Over here in Oklahoma, we went straight from winter to summer with only a few days of spring. And to that I say, "BOOOOO!!". Spring is my favorite season. I love seeing all of the dead trees and grass come to life with a bright green color. And the weather is absolutely glorious--it's a break from all of the cold weather and instead has a nice crisp air that isn't cold, but refreshing. Welp, I only got to enjoy that a few sporadic days. Welcome to Oklahoma weather πŸ™„.

 
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So because it's getting hot here (and because I'm pregnant), I'm craving lots of cold, fresh foods. Side note, I had Jason's Deli for lunch the other day with a friend for the first time in like 10 years, and the salad bar was SO refreshing!! I'm trying to remember what all I put in my salad so that I can recreate it, because it was super delicious. Do people even go to Jason's Deli anymore? I'm okay with the free ice cream that comes with every meal....πŸ™‹

Today's recipe isn't as much of a recipe as it is a guide for creating a delicious and easy lunch that can easily be prepped ahead for multiple lunches. I receive periodic packages from Bolthouse Farms (I was not compensated for writing this post) and the most recent package had their new organic vinaigrette dressings. I'm a big fan. I got this three herb and a lemon basil one. They also send us delicious juices and smoothies that Isaac loves as snacks (I liked their green juice one). 

 
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For this batch, I used Banza pasta to give it more fiber and protein and really enjoyed the hearty texture. I also used some pimiento-stuffed green olives that we had on hand, but you could use any olive to give it a nice saltiness. Feel free to use whatever veggies you wish. I wish I had had artichokes, because I think that would be a nice addition. If you try them in it, you should let me know what you think.

 
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P.S. Baby will be 17 weeks tomorrow and we find out the gender in 3 weeks. We are SO excited!!!

 
Quick summertime pasta salad--perfect for lunches!
 

I've got a secret to tell you...

I've got a secret that I've been keeping for awhile that I'm excited to finally let you in on.

These past few months have been pretty rough. Not emotionally rough, but physically. I've dealt with a lot of fatigue, nausea, high food aversions, an expanding wasteline, and general feelings of blehness...Yep...I'm PREGNANT!!

 
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Tomorrow I will officially be 13 weeks and out of my first trimester. Phew!! You have no idea how glad I am that it is finally here. I'm FINALLY starting to feel more like myself, which is such a breath of fresh air. Who knew you could accomplish so much when you actually have energy and don't want to vomit?!?

We actually found out when I was only three weeks pregnant (um, say what?? how is that even possible? that's actually really only one week of being pregnant 😳). I was noticing some body changes (I think my chest size doubled overnight) and I had to pee ALL the time. Then when I didn't start my period, I thought something might be up. I took a dollar store test on Sunday, and when it was positive, rushed to the store to get a second. Sure enough, it was positive too! I cannot even describe how sweet Isaac was when I told him. He was ELATED! For the next few days every time he would look at me he would just smile and then come over and shower me in kisses. So precious. I'm not going to lie, it came as quite a surprise to me. And I freaked. Isaac and I knew we wanted to start a family in the near future, but I was training for "one last half marathon before having a baby" and wanted to have a full year of private practice under my belt before having a baby. But the Lord obviously had different plans, and I know that this child is going to be the best blessing ever.

So what has pregnancy been like for me? Like I said above, not super fun. I pretty much had nausea 24/7 from week 5-10 and am still dealing with it off and on. I'm such a pansy when it comes to having the stomach bug, and that's what it felt like for me all the time. I didn't want to do ANYTHING. I've taken a LOT of naps over the past few months. And there have been many nights where I've gone to bed with dirty dishes in the sink. Oh wait, it was that way before I got pregnant πŸ™ˆ. 

 
We're having a baby
 

Y'all, it's CRAZY what happens to your body during pregnancy. I knew that we don't have much control over our bodies, but pregnancy has really magnified that for me and it's something that I'm having to learn to go with the flow with. Nausea and fatigue? Of course I knew of those. But heartburn in the first trimester?? And night sweats? Oh dear, what else do I not know about?!? πŸ˜³I am having to constantly learn my body as it changes from day-to-day and respond accordingly.

Which brings me to food. Food has been tricky. I went from being extremely nauseous and not wanting food to being extremely hungry (you know the hungry where you feel like you're gonna vomit? that kind of hungry) but still having major aversions. It made eating really difficult. And really unenjoyable. Guys, I have lived off asiago bagels for the past 7 weeks. I have had at least one a day because it's about the only thing that sounds good. I've also discovered quite a love for sweet tarts πŸ˜‰. At first it was a little concerning that I didn't want a single vegetable (barf) and that the only things I thought I could stomach were white (or sour candies)--bread, tator tots, french fries, etc. But then I realized that it is no big deal. So I don't eat vegetables for 12 weeks! Not gonna kill me. I am so incredibly grateful that I have incorporated intuitive eating into my life, because without it, the last few months would have been incredibly stressful. I knew that at some point, I would want to eat vegetables and fruits again. I knew that I would want more fiber-rich foods. But I had to give my body time. And I am so grateful to say that I AM wanting some veggies now. I'm really grateful that I have been able to give my body what it needs when it needs it without second guessing how it is that I'm hungry 2 hours after eating breakfast. Or that I essentially want dinner leftovers as an evening snack. These past few months have been such a blaring example of how freeing intuitive eating is for me. It's hard to understand my ever-changing body, but I have given myself grace for the times when I haven't met its needs exactly (example: overshooting hunger and then going to bed and having acid reflux--unenjoyable for sure, but it doesn't mean I'm a failure).

 
 My lifeline....

My lifeline....

 One half topped with avocado and pepitas, the other half with cream cheese, egg, and chicken sausage

One half topped with avocado and pepitas, the other half with cream cheese, egg, and chicken sausage

 

As far as body image goes? If I'm 100% transparent, I was trying to come to terms with my body still changing before finding out about the pregnancy. So with pregnancy, I've experienced a lot of bloat and my waste simply getting thicker. It's been difficult not to have clothes that really fit my body. But I am learning to accept my rapidly changing body size/shape. My body is changing for incredibly good reasons--it's growing a human. But to be proactive, I bought this book after seeing that Kylie Mitchell read it during her pregnancy too. I've only read the first few chapters, but it's really nice to know I'm not alone in what I'm experiencing or feeling. It has also been super empowering to read. Guys, our bodies can accomplish so much and that is something to be thankful for and proud of!

 
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Well, that's all for now! I plan on doing some pregnancy updates in the future. I don't really know what my fall will look like or the months after having baby, but I'm just going to take it one day at a time.

Caio!!